Day 24

Mainstreet
Rush City, MN

Dear lord it happened, finally. My motivation is back! Here is what happened.

This morning I worked for the City and then I came home and worked for my new job. Then I had some dinner. As I was cleaning up, I realized I had forgotten something. Oh crap! My blog! I was so happy and focused today that it completely slipped my mind.

I sat on my couch and was holding my phone in my hands. I thought about how happy I am now and how much of a relief it would be to just throw in the towel and focus on the new things in my life. How it would feel like a weight off my shoulders and I could get back to living my life. As I was about to write my exit post, nine words came screaming into my head like a freight train.

IF IT DOESN'T CHALLENGE YOU

 IT DOESN'T CHANGE YOU. 

I was taken off guard by this thought. Those nine words have been staring at me from my fridge for over a month. I finally know what they mean. I stood up and I decided in that moment- I want to change! And I will not change if I do not change what I do. Quitting this blog would not be akin to "getting back to my life." In fact it would be the opposite. It would send me backwards. It would re-affirm my old belief that quitting is ok.

To truly change, we have to dig REALLY deep and do what we are most resisting, our toughest challenges. There will always be a battle between the old you with the old paradigm, and the new you with the new paradigm. The truly best things in life require work, they are not easy. To get from the old you to the new you, you have to change that paradigm, by fighting those urges to take the easy way out and meeting those toughest of challenges head-on with your gladiator war cry!

What do I want? I want to keep making positive changes in my life. I want a positive attitude, and I want positive results. I want to get better every day. I want to chase my dreams. And i'm sorry, girl, but those dreams do not come wrapped in TV and ice cream. They do not come wrapped in over-doing it at the bar. They do not come from being insecure.

Dreams come to those who work hard and push through their challenges. We are here on earth to learn lessons, to grow, to change, to make changes in the world, and to inspire others to do the same! I want to show up in the world doing just that! And I hope from deep within, that I will leave a positive mark on this world and maybe inspire someone who used to be like the old me- thinking nothing is possible.

Baby, anything is possible!

XOXO,
Jamie Lynn

ECRL
Rush City, MN